Monday, May 16, 2011

Buddee Crafts the Saboteur

Buddee crafts the Saboteur who can sweep you under in a heartbeat with his handy dandy broom of self-doubt and reason — robbing your spirit and intent.

You feel great. You’re poised to shift into new endeavors, to change the direction of your life. Looking ahead you can see the results of this shift: an increased sense of well-being. Your intentions are clear, your commitment to action is in place—and then something thwarts the process. That “something” is your Buddee, who shows up as a subconscious sabotaging force.

Buddee’s first strike as Saboteur is to challenge every aspect of your intention to expand your life. You take a risk, do things differently, try a new creation, or uncover a part of you that has been squelched far too long. Soon Buddee’s voices arrive on the scene with doubt to undermine your new commitment.

As creator and operator of your safety program, he coaxes you to abort change and cling to what is familiar and predictable. He attempts to maintain the status quo of your life. Buddee’s motto is: “We’re currently safe, so let’s keep everything as it is.”

The concept of sabotage comes from the Netherlands in the fifteenth century when workers threw their wooden shoes into the wooden gears of the textile looms to break the cogs, because they feared the automated machines would render the human workers obsolete. When Buddee feels the threat of change, he throws in his shoes and does his best to muck up the works.

But change is inevitable. The universe is built on the principle of constant flux. We are either the agent of change as our intentions fuel our new actions, or we experience the results of change as events prod us to stretch, grow and move into new arenas.

Choosing a new direction that summons fresh possibilities opens us to greater fields of light. It shifts us into new and unknown spaces where all we have known will be up for examination. Expansion, by its nature, gives space for inspiration, innovation and excitement. And, along with these juicy states comes a dose of trepidation or down right fear.

When life unexpectedly turns onto a new path that we weren’t prepared for, we find our self unearthed. Our safety zone is challenged. What we have relied on is gone and we are shaken to our very bones. Free-falling into foreign territory, our ground quakes with confusion and trepidation.

No matter whether change starts from within or takes us by storm from outside, one thing is sure: your Buddee show up shoes in hand. His sabotaging force slows or stops your momentum. He doesn’t trust the unknown spaces of transition—too unstable for his taste.

Do you remember a time when you were about to undertake something new? Perhaps you were about to initiate a new creation, take a new job, or commit to a relationship. Your heart and mind felt engaged. You made the choice to follow what felt right and true for you.

Did you notice uneasiness and voices of reason chime in to cause you to doubt yourself? Those were Buddee’s tactics to convince you to avoid the discomfort of change. He is not concerned about your happiness or fulfillment; he is interested in keeping you the same so he can stay in control.

Reason is the main tool Buddee uses to halt growth and keep you stagnant. He comes up with reasonable strategies to remind you that change is dangerous. Even if your world is feeling constricted or is lacking in vitality Buddee sticks to the motto: “Stay safe and keep everything as it is right now”.

New actions frequently give us a feeling of going against some force. That force is Buddee. You can see people making new decisions and taking unprecedented actions and then they pause to say, “This must not be right or it wouldn’t be this hard.” Not true! Changing our program is hard work as it takes a huge amount of energy to shift into a new direction.

Even if a situation is abusive or dysfunctional and you know you need to leave it, Buddee will convince you to put up with it. His voices come in a variety of tones: “It could be worse.” “Maybe things will get better if I stay here, ” “You will likely re-create the same problems in the next relationship.” “You can’t possibly do this.” “It won’t work!” “Can I survive?” Buddee’s banter appears intelligent as he tries to convince you to stay in unsafe or impossible situations.

Buddee works to control change. Like a big black hole consuming huge amounts of energy, his fight against the inevitable expends your vital life force. He ensnares you in inertia, indecision and indifference. When he is in exceptional form, you may find yourself unable to get out of bed.

Buddee’s sabotaging mechanism is not born from negativity, although his program certainly engenders negative thinking. It is all about protecting what is safe and familiar.

While his sabotage is often demonstrated through reason, he has another powerful mode to keep you from expanding. Buddee is a master at procrastination. He will keep you from starting or completing any task. This is his way of coping with the anxiety that accompanies change.

If your actions are counterproductive or delay your new intention, you are caught in Buddee’s sabotage. He keeps you procrastinating so that you don’t escape his comfort zone.

Buddee has another finely tuned mechanism to interrupt momentum in your life. Rather than experience the uneasy feelings that arise with expansion and freedom, Buddee will point you to your familiar addictive patterns in an attempt to modulate your energy—keep you in your comfort zone.

Just as you have taken up a new way of being, he reminds you of the comfort that your past or present addictive behaviors have given you. He sends you back to the cigarettes, on to create drama, out to shop till you drop, or plops you down to surf the web. The frenetic activity of addiction attempts to keep you from feeling the huge influx of light that opens within you as you raise the state of your life. Buddee perceives this as foreign, thus dangerous. He wants you to panic and retreat from everything unfamiliar.

When you stay focused on your intention to change or expand your life, expect Buddee to show up to test you. He hammers you with reason, undermines you with doubt, keeps you in procrastination mode or activates addictive tendencies. You can get angry at his drag on your life and waste your energy in frustration. Or, you can accept him for what he is: an outdated program fraught with errors and lies that is holding you back from your potential.

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